If you couldn't tell by the title of my post, I'm getting a new job and I am so super excited. I am still with the same company but I will be permanently doing work that was originally temporary for me. That means less direct stress, less contact with the public (which is very stressful for me), and more opportunity to utilize my brain. Granted this job won't be easy or always fun, but it will give me great insight to the business side of things which could prove useful in the future for me. Also, I finally get my weekends back. Not every single weekend, because there will be the rare occasion that I will have to go in and help with some launching over a set-up weekend, but the majority of my weekends will be mine and my families again. I get a stead Monday through Friday schedule, no bouncing around week after week trying to remember when I am supposed to be at work the next day. This is a much needed break from the heavy workload I have been baring the past two years. I feel like I will have the chance to do more with my daughter and husband. I really am excited for this upcoming Fall, my husband will be in school, I will be taking classes, and my daughter will be entering the 3rd grade (a pivotal moment in grammar school). Oh yea and with the help on Pinterest I have so many ideas for staying connected to my family and our friends I really believe that I will get to feel like the wife and mother I have always hoped to be.
Peace and Namaste Ya'll
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Setting Goals, Classes & New Jobs?
Hey Ya'll,
Okay so after all of my whining I put my big girl panties on and refocused. I have reorganized a new health challenge at work. I failed to reach any of my goals on the first challenge and found myself feeling like a failure. What I learned is that I was focusing on the wrong thing at the wrong time. I needed to reconnect with myself as a person and really understand what I wanted and devise a plan to obtain my desires. I also realized I was exhausted and needed something to be relinquished. Which brings me to my Summer time endeavors. My child will be gone for the Summer visiting her grandparents which really allows me the chance to focus on myself. I definitely need to be able to do exactly that for a few months and develop some really beneficial habits. In addition to having the time to to dedicate to my body I will also have the time to dedicate to my mind. Classes at IIN will begin for me in July and I hope to be able to document my experience here with ya'll as I complete the program over the next year. I am looking to really open this practice up into something that will combine nicely with my future birth support practice.
For more immediate relief I have been informed that a different role within my company is expected to open up sometime soon. It would be familiar yet new for me, which will really help me wade out my last few years with the company while I complete all of my certifications and build my practice. So, I have taken a deep cleansing breath in...and now I wait for the relieving complete exhale. The Most High has my back so I know it's coming!
Peace and Namaste Ya'll
Okay so after all of my whining I put my big girl panties on and refocused. I have reorganized a new health challenge at work. I failed to reach any of my goals on the first challenge and found myself feeling like a failure. What I learned is that I was focusing on the wrong thing at the wrong time. I needed to reconnect with myself as a person and really understand what I wanted and devise a plan to obtain my desires. I also realized I was exhausted and needed something to be relinquished. Which brings me to my Summer time endeavors. My child will be gone for the Summer visiting her grandparents which really allows me the chance to focus on myself. I definitely need to be able to do exactly that for a few months and develop some really beneficial habits. In addition to having the time to to dedicate to my body I will also have the time to dedicate to my mind. Classes at IIN will begin for me in July and I hope to be able to document my experience here with ya'll as I complete the program over the next year. I am looking to really open this practice up into something that will combine nicely with my future birth support practice.
For more immediate relief I have been informed that a different role within my company is expected to open up sometime soon. It would be familiar yet new for me, which will really help me wade out my last few years with the company while I complete all of my certifications and build my practice. So, I have taken a deep cleansing breath in...and now I wait for the relieving complete exhale. The Most High has my back so I know it's coming!
Peace and Namaste Ya'll
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
The Root of My Frustrations
I have begun a new certification program with a holistic nutrition school that has really prompted me to dig deep and understand where my food "problems" stem from. I have learned that I am definitely a person who self medicates with food (surprise surprise). Ultimately I have found that...I hate what my life has become.
Okay, that may be a bit melodramatic, but I definitely do not love the work that I do. I had such high hopes for this job, but it's too many client in too short of time. Everyone needs so much help and there is only so much to go around. In the end I also feel that we do the community a disservice by making things so "easy" for them. Rather than really and truly teaching them or even in some cases using "tough love" to show them how to take their health into their own hands. I sick of having to serve so many people who are unhappy in their lives also. They drain the life from me. I want to work with people who are satisfied, happy even, in their life. Who want to be where they are at that time and are actively making conscious decisions to do what is best for them by coming to see me. The hours I work are not fantastic, and the pay is not comparable to the stress.
But I don't know how to make enough money to keep our families finances in order doing something that I will actually love. It seems I will need to either sacrifices time and desire for money, or money for happiness. Unfortunately, my husband has been unable to launch himself back into his direct career field so his portion of the family income is much less than it used to be. So it is not really possible for me to just leave and build from scratch. *le sigh* I can't give up, apparently that's what I have been doing which is why I have been hiding in my plates. I just need help!! I need help move on to the next stage. I need help feeling like I have a chance to be happy here. I need help finding a way to survive transitioning. I need help becoming happy again.
Sorry about all the whining lately. I'm just a little lost and could really use some direction and quickly. *shrug* Oh well, I'm sure it will happen. The Most High never fails.
Namaste Ya'll
Okay, that may be a bit melodramatic, but I definitely do not love the work that I do. I had such high hopes for this job, but it's too many client in too short of time. Everyone needs so much help and there is only so much to go around. In the end I also feel that we do the community a disservice by making things so "easy" for them. Rather than really and truly teaching them or even in some cases using "tough love" to show them how to take their health into their own hands. I sick of having to serve so many people who are unhappy in their lives also. They drain the life from me. I want to work with people who are satisfied, happy even, in their life. Who want to be where they are at that time and are actively making conscious decisions to do what is best for them by coming to see me. The hours I work are not fantastic, and the pay is not comparable to the stress.
But I don't know how to make enough money to keep our families finances in order doing something that I will actually love. It seems I will need to either sacrifices time and desire for money, or money for happiness. Unfortunately, my husband has been unable to launch himself back into his direct career field so his portion of the family income is much less than it used to be. So it is not really possible for me to just leave and build from scratch. *le sigh* I can't give up, apparently that's what I have been doing which is why I have been hiding in my plates. I just need help!! I need help move on to the next stage. I need help feeling like I have a chance to be happy here. I need help finding a way to survive transitioning. I need help becoming happy again.
Sorry about all the whining lately. I'm just a little lost and could really use some direction and quickly. *shrug* Oh well, I'm sure it will happen. The Most High never fails.
Namaste Ya'll
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Primary Foods
So I've been learning some new ways of thinking about what nourishes...me. I have learned the new concepts of Primary Foods. Primary Foods those elements of our lives that feed our souls; i.e.: doing work that you really connect with rather than work that doesn't align with your core values, having a spiritual practice that best fits your needs and beliefs, having an exercise regimen that you ENJOY and take part in regularly, and last but certainly not least having Healthy meaningful relationships in your life. The idea that these things contribute to one's health and happiness just as much as a clean diet is not necessarily revolutionary for me. But the idea that if I start with the nurturing these "foods" in my life that the remainder of my health will follow suit. With that said I believe that I will begin with repairing my spiritual & exercise needs with a new yoga studio. I have found one that is closer to my home, less expensive than any other studio I have encountered, and next door to the boxing gym that my dear hubby works out at. The only other thing I can hope for is that the instructors are wonderful and easy to connect with, should they be this will very serendipitous. I think this will be a good journey....It's definitely been a long one so far *le sigh*
Namaste Ya'll
Namaste Ya'll
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Good Decisions Good Vibrations
Hey Ya'll,
So remember when I wrote last time about really cutting back on eating land animals and doing my best to eliminate processed foods. Well, apparently it really is what seems to work best for me. This allows me the most freedom in my diet with the greatest results. I don't feel deprived and I actually got a complement today. Someone (outside of the home) noticed that I have looking pretty darn good these days. I really needed that complement to recharge the old self-esteem batteries. Now I know I can survive the massive amount of eating out that is about to happen while we go on vacation. I think I want to change up my workout routine, but I'm nearly finished with Jillian Michael's Body Revolution so I may as well complete the program. Then I think I'm ready for my yoga practice to open itself up again. Sometimes you just have to change things up in order to remember how much you appreciate the way things were.
Side Note: I think I just may begin to post pics of stuff on here to keep things interesting. Everyone loves visuals these days right? Hmm
Namaste Ya'll
So remember when I wrote last time about really cutting back on eating land animals and doing my best to eliminate processed foods. Well, apparently it really is what seems to work best for me. This allows me the most freedom in my diet with the greatest results. I don't feel deprived and I actually got a complement today. Someone (outside of the home) noticed that I have looking pretty darn good these days. I really needed that complement to recharge the old self-esteem batteries. Now I know I can survive the massive amount of eating out that is about to happen while we go on vacation. I think I want to change up my workout routine, but I'm nearly finished with Jillian Michael's Body Revolution so I may as well complete the program. Then I think I'm ready for my yoga practice to open itself up again. Sometimes you just have to change things up in order to remember how much you appreciate the way things were.
Side Note: I think I just may begin to post pics of stuff on here to keep things interesting. Everyone loves visuals these days right? Hmm
Namaste Ya'll
Friday, April 27, 2012
Lent this year
Hey Ya'll,
In my last post I said that I would discuss my diet during Lent. This year I chose to embark on a vegan fast. I learned a lot about myself. I learned that there is some sort of dairy or animal fat in virtually every manufactured food on the market unless specifically stated as vegan. Which to honest, I wasn't exactly surprised by.What I was surprised by were the types of cravings I had. The first 2 weeks were not bad at all, I had to turn down pizza and did so without great difficulty. I ate my veggies and made a couple new meals for myself and brought back some old favorites. But about halfway through Lent I found that I had an increasingly strong desire for primarily two things. The first food item: Cheese, I love cheese of all kinds. Cheddar, Havarti, Provolone, Mozzarella, Colby, etc. and my love for said food really solidified the fact that a purely vegan diet just is not in the cards for me at this point in my life. *shrug* The second food item, was more of a collections of foods: Seafood. My family knows I love seafood, and the only reason I don't eat more of it is because I live in land-locked Central Texas so it tends to get pricey. With that being said after Easter I kind of went...ugh...left field with my eating habits to say the least. That was nearly 3 weeks ago, now that my body feels like yuck all over again I'm choosing to change my planning process with my meals. This week I managed to make lunches for the whole week for both myself and my husband. Actually I got carried away with it and had plenty pre-made for a couple dinners and most of my daughter's lunches too. Guess my zeal was good for everyone. I'm off to Costco to get some seafood for the up coming week's meals and more veggies. I'll be back to talk about something else later. I think I'd like to share my growth in the world of holistic living and natural products as I continue. Maybe others will learn from the mistakes I've made along the way. As always.....
Namaste Ya'll
In my last post I said that I would discuss my diet during Lent. This year I chose to embark on a vegan fast. I learned a lot about myself. I learned that there is some sort of dairy or animal fat in virtually every manufactured food on the market unless specifically stated as vegan. Which to honest, I wasn't exactly surprised by.What I was surprised by were the types of cravings I had. The first 2 weeks were not bad at all, I had to turn down pizza and did so without great difficulty. I ate my veggies and made a couple new meals for myself and brought back some old favorites. But about halfway through Lent I found that I had an increasingly strong desire for primarily two things. The first food item: Cheese, I love cheese of all kinds. Cheddar, Havarti, Provolone, Mozzarella, Colby, etc. and my love for said food really solidified the fact that a purely vegan diet just is not in the cards for me at this point in my life. *shrug* The second food item, was more of a collections of foods: Seafood. My family knows I love seafood, and the only reason I don't eat more of it is because I live in land-locked Central Texas so it tends to get pricey. With that being said after Easter I kind of went...ugh...left field with my eating habits to say the least. That was nearly 3 weeks ago, now that my body feels like yuck all over again I'm choosing to change my planning process with my meals. This week I managed to make lunches for the whole week for both myself and my husband. Actually I got carried away with it and had plenty pre-made for a couple dinners and most of my daughter's lunches too. Guess my zeal was good for everyone. I'm off to Costco to get some seafood for the up coming week's meals and more veggies. I'll be back to talk about something else later. I think I'd like to share my growth in the world of holistic living and natural products as I continue. Maybe others will learn from the mistakes I've made along the way. As always.....
Namaste Ya'll
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Overcoming Failing...or the Fear of...
So after my epic failure of my 21 day Yoga Challenge (I only managed to complete 12 consecutive days) I took on the Jillian Micheal's Body Revolution challenge. Apparently what I need right now is to have someone else map out the routine and everything for me right now until I fully get my mojo back. I am pleased to say that I have successfully made it halfway through the program. Only 6 more weeks left to finish this 90 day challenge and I'm doing GREAT!! I'm so proud of myself. I roll my sleep head out of the bed every morning, 6 days a week, and workout at the butt crack of dawn. It starts my day with a burst of power and even though by the end of the day I am so ready for bed, I feel much better about myself. Slowly but surely I am beginning to feel like myself again. I have not given up on Yoga, I don't think I ever could, in fact I still find myself randomly posing when my body speaks to me. But as I've said before I really do better when I have an instructor to correct me and allow me to follow their energy. My goal is to have a consistent home practice all my own, but I am acknowledging that right now is not the time. Right now I am choosing to focus on reclaiming my body and my eating habits. I talk about those another day. Today I just wanted to say move it or lose it has so much more meaning to me now. I am choosing to move it because I know what it feels like to lose it and I never want to feel like that again.
Namaste Ya'll
Namaste Ya'll
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