Friday, February 17, 2012

Yoga Challenge Day 9 of 21

So I have learned a few things about myself during this challenge. I have learned that I'm not so great with trying to trick myself into a full workout 7 days a week. I have also learned that if I don't just get it over with before 10:00am it will virtually take an act of God to get me to do it later in the day. Being flexible is one thing, but I have be realistic with myself. I need structure and a certain level of routine in order to feel secure and be successful. *Le Sigh*  I'm planning on attempting another reboot at the end of this month. I know I mentioned in a previous post that I was contemplating a fast but I hadn't decided exactly what kind. I've chosen to return to the Reboot, they now have a larger selection of cleanses to follow. I can tailor a challenge to fit my lifestyle more closely. I will begin my 7 day ramp up to the detox on Ash Wednesday and afterwards complete a 15-day challenge that will alternate eating and juicing. I feel as though if I make this detox my lent fast then I will be more likely to follow through. I am much more diligent when it comes to giving of myself for The Most High rather than for my own accord.
I am still making my way through my Yoga Challenge, it seems to be more of a challenge to make sure I write about it everyday. What I would really love is to be able to afford classes again. Yoga classes are just beyond my financial bracket right now, especially with the kid taking gymnastics more seriously and the hubby beginning to take on boxing. Yet again my desires my be met at home or cast off into the shadows. Maybe I can find a studio that will allow me to take classes on a barter system. Maybe I have skill that a studio may be able to use.
Speaking of skills, leading into work...I need a new career, a new LIFE. I'm immensely bored, maybe annoyed, or maybe saddened by my life right now. Don't get me wrong I'm still so very grateful to even have a job, because there was a time when I did not have one and felt as though I would never find a job. I'd much rather stay where I am than ever feel the fear of such uncertainty and financial struggle as that again. But is it so wrong to want to like your job? Is it so wrong to actually both believe in what you do AND enjoy doing it. I believe in the mission of the organization that I work for, but I do not believe in disorganization, inefficiency, or coddling adults who are fully capable of learning, thinking, and doing  the right thing for their own lives. Plus I'm DONE with the very people who I am trying to help out giving me attitude as if I owe them anything else. I want to work with people who actually WANT to be present.
Okay, enough of that, a better existence is just around the corner. I can see the gold glimmers of hope and change and they're drawing me near like a moth to a flame. I have faith that I'm smart enough now to not get burned.
Namaste Ya'll
P.S. If you know of any skill trading yoga studios in Austin, TX throw me a name and I will graciously give them a call.  
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